I am fine... really

These few days, I really experience the warmest caring from my friends. I felt being loved and cared like a baby. Friends cook for me, Eric doing house chores for me and even cook for the boys. WOHOO, can I say I am lucky enough to have good people surround me?

Last Thursday afternoon, I did have a terrible blood discharging. Lots and lots of blood coming out and I felt terribly ill and had a big headache the next day. Luckily, I did not have severe pain. Having miscarriage is such a painful experience emotionally and physically.

Right now, I just have to take good care of my health so that I have enough energy to travel back to country for such a long time.

Yes, I am fine, really.... What I am focus right now is my loving family and of course my dearest friends.....

What a day.... mix feeling

Yesterday, I have some blood discharged. Though it is not as heavy as the monthly period, I just felt not comfortable especially I am in the early stage of pregnancy.

Today, I went to the doctor office. After the ultrasound, I was confirmed that the baby is not fully developed and the blood signaled me that I lost the baby. So, officially, my baby is gone at week 7.

Mix feeling, is all I can say. Sad plus relief. I was a bit sad because I lost something precious which stay in my body for seven weeks. At the same time, I was a bit relief that everything will back to normal.

Eric gave me a big hug. The boys were showing not much feeling. They just know that the baby inside mommy's tummy is gone.

I believed everything is being planned in our life. It's yours, still be yours. If not, then, we just have to go on the normal life as usual.

Brazon Bend National Park

On 11/1/2011, we had a field trip with a group of homeschooling families to Brazos Bend National Park. It is about 1/2 hour road trip from our house. We being to this park quite a few times, just tat this time we had a tour guide guiding us along the trail explaining all the things around the park.

First, we walked around the 40 acre lake for about 1 miles. Along the trail, the tour guide is showing us all different kinds of trees and plants.

The volunteer is explaining why it is important to have trees and tell us this tree fall during hurricane and now become a new habitat for some animals.

4 stories tall observatory tower where the kids can view three different ecosystem---marshland, swamp and wetlands.

Ethan took this picture at the top of the tower.

Alligator backbone

Compare and contrast between alligator and crododile.

Hummingbird nest and egg.

The boys are touching the 2 months old alligator.

They are having lots of fun inside the nature center.

The wetlands is covered by green duckweed. The dried up lotus can be seen all over the big pond.

Can you see the big alligator? There are many alligator in this park, but most time just laying lazily basking under the sun.

Waiting for a speaker ( an astronomer indeed) to give a talk about telescope.



The giant telescope. Too bad it is under repair, we cannot get chance to look at it.

Sharing the baby news with friends

Today, I announced the baby news to some of my close friends through email. My yahoo mail is getting so busy after the news. Everyone is so happy and excited about the baby news.

Having baby is a great news among us at our 30s and 40s. It is the time everyone is talking about having baby, how many, boy or girl and exchange idea in parenting. Eric and I planned to have only two boys, that is way too much for us right now. Having the third one is really out of our plan. But since it happens, we just have to accept him or her happily. Able to conceive a baby is a blessing.. I truly believe it.

Telling big news to the boys

After the doctor visit, I showed the boys the ultrasound picture of their future brother or sister. At first, they are not sure where to look on the picture. They were surprise to know that the little dot is the baby. Ethan said," Oh, that is the cell. Tiny one."

The boys started to ask me tons of questions.

"Are you sure you are going to have a baby?"

"Why you want another baby?"

"What are you going to name him? ( They suppose this baby will be a boy)"

" Let's think about name! Elephant, Ethan Jr., Eric Jr., Eugene, Ellista, Maria......."

"Do you know you have to buy a lot of stuff? Crib, diaper, milk, toys, clothes, blah blah blah?"

" So, your belly is getting bigger each day?"

" Where does the baby going to sleep? "

I am sure more questions will be popping out in the coming days. But, I truly hope that these two boys will be a good brother to the baby.

First doctor visit

Without any referral, I look up the Chinese Yellow Book to look for OBGYN doctor in Sugarland. Found one near to our place, Doctor Lisa Tsai. She is a very straightfoward doctor with open mind.

I am 114Ibs now for 5 weeks pregnancy. The baby is expected to due by 6/23/2012. The doctor did the Pap Smear on me and ultrasound today.

We only saw a little tiny dot on the screen and I got one ultrasound picture from the doctor. Two more weeks I will come and see the doctor again.

Mad and angry

I tried not to get mad with the boys especially having the third baby. I know getting angry will more or less affect the baby and my emotion. Today, I was so mad until I throw the books on the floor to express my anger towards the boys.

Evan was sobbing sadly after seeing mom getting mad crazily. I know he is so afraid and I am regret that I acted that way. Sometimes, I just feel that I put too much pressure on them and on me especially during the school time.

No more angry, no more mad. Promise.....