What a day.... mix feeling

Yesterday, I have some blood discharged. Though it is not as heavy as the monthly period, I just felt not comfortable especially I am in the early stage of pregnancy.

Today, I went to the doctor office. After the ultrasound, I was confirmed that the baby is not fully developed and the blood signaled me that I lost the baby. So, officially, my baby is gone at week 7.

Mix feeling, is all I can say. Sad plus relief. I was a bit sad because I lost something precious which stay in my body for seven weeks. At the same time, I was a bit relief that everything will back to normal.

Eric gave me a big hug. The boys were showing not much feeling. They just know that the baby inside mommy's tummy is gone.

I believed everything is being planned in our life. It's yours, still be yours. If not, then, we just have to go on the normal life as usual.